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My debt

2012-01-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

My debt

The will of God

2011-10-25T10:26:00.000+08:00

"What is the will of God?"

"How do we know the will of God?"

I believe these are the common questions we always go about in our christian journey. As I was just doing my regular reading routine yesterday night I came across the topic on Knowing God's will for our life. I realize that God has been saying this very clearly ever since Couz Camp 2011.

To know His will we have to read His word. If we do not spend time to read and study the scriptures, first of all we won't know God and how can not knowing God contributes into knowing our the will God has for us? It really challenge me to spend more time to read scriptures because I am 110% sure that without knowing the scriptures we can never know the will of God for our life.

Joshua 1:8

New International Version (NIV)

⁸ Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.

Amusing

2011-10-25T10:17:00.000+08:00

SIRI is really one amazing software. I can imagine playing with it all day long if I have the 4s.

Source: http://shitthatsirisays.tumblr.com/page/6

One desire

2011-09-26T02:21:00.000+08:00

There is only one desire in my heart.

Time flies

2011-07-11T09:35:00.000+08:00

Since I started my journey in the marketplace I realize that time flies even faster.

It seems as though the days are shorter and in a blink of an eye the weeks are gone.

I sense the urgency to make use of my time wisely, to do things that truly matters for His kingdom sake.

F&F

2011-05-22T03:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I think forgiving someone is the hardest thing ever.

But I'm wrong, forgetting is even harder.

May You grant me a heart to love, forgive and forget.

May I learn to see from Your eyes.

I am thankful

2011-04-12T17:18:00.000+08:00

Nothing matters more than a genuine relationship with Him.

Nothing can compares to the things He had taught me as I go through the difficult seasons in my life.

Nothing can replace the love and grace He gave to me.

No words can ever explain how thankful I am to God my Father for all He had given me in my life.

Thank you Lord for your everlasting love and faithfulness.

One thing I always remember is to give praise and to Him no matter what situation I face in life. Good times or bad times I praise Him who He is.

1 Thessalonians 5:18

Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Serenity Prayer

2011-03-06T02:46:00.000+08:00

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

I had enough. Done what I need to. It's time.. =)

Just for the sake of an update

2011-02-26T02:48:00.000+08:00

Surely this is just not the season for me to blog as it is pretty obvious that my blog had been pretty dead for some time. I believe there is a season to blog and often time I prefer heading over to my area-51 to drop some thoughts and prayers.

2011 is surely a year of transition. A lot of uncertainties and changes that I need to prepare myself to face. Often time I find myself struggling with a lot of tough decisions and mind boggling issues that require me to really take a deep reflection on my own thoughts and actions to clear the clouds of confusion. It is so easy to slip into slumber and you notice by the time you are in slumber you are so vulnerable for the enemy to drag you further away from God. I've learn many lessons the hard way in 2010 and it truly changes me a lot and most importantly I've to say it brought me a lot closer to God. I have a good God. No words can ever describe how thankful I am having Him in my life. Without Him, I seriously do not know how I can live my life and even made it through the trials and tribulations hurled at me. God had been really good and He never fail to keep His promise. I'm just grateful that I have Jesus in my life. What more can I ask for?

Psalms 37:4

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.

1st in 2011

2011-01-23T03:24:00.000+08:00

First post in 2011 for my dear abandoned blog.

It's already 23 days passed in this year of 2011 and to this point I really don't have anything interesting to share in my blog. All I know now is that I'm waiting for Him to lead and guide me in the next step of my life. May God clear all the clouds of confusion in my life so that I may see His will and walk in it..faithfully with obedience. God bless everyone who actually bother to read my blog =)

Psalms 127:1
Unless the Lord build the house, the builders labor in vain...

I'm not gonna labor in vain..

My encounter with God favor

2010-12-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

It was my first time getting involve in an accident. Was rammed real hard from the back by a black myvi who did not manage to stop on time. Probably he was dreaming because I can see he is speeding real fast from the back view mirror when I stop my car due to the heavy traffic in front. Getting hit on a 2 way highway lane is not a good spot as traffic was building up real fast and I was rushing to a dinner with relative I've decided to just snap a few photos take down his contact number and proceed to a police report after my dinner.

The damage of my car. Bumper badly dislocated and broken. Skirting was crooked all the way inside and it was touching the rear tire. As I drove off, it creates a weird noise and rubber smell due to the friction. I has to stop my car along federal highway because it is totally impossible to drive with the skirting in contact with the tire. I went down and tried to pull away the skirting with my bare hands. No matter how hard I pull I couldn't ripped it off. At that moment, I just told God that I really don't know how to fix this, please help me. Right after I said my prayer to God, a kind motorist appear and offer to help. Incidentally he is a foreman and he took out his bag of tools and adjust back the bumper and remove the skirting for me.

Coincident? Absolutely not, I believe it is God sent and really thank God for being so faithful and is my first time ever experiencing God answering prayer so instantly. For He says, .."Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5)

Interesting part of the incident.

The car that bulldoze me from behind? Surprising eh? Perodua boleh I tell you... LOL

Because

2010-11-25T11:07:00.000+08:00

I'm where I am today is all because...

Chinese-fied

2010-11-22T12:05:00.000+08:00

Back from a 8 days trip to China, Shanghai, Suzhou, Hangzhou, Nanjing, Wuxi and Wuzhen. Looking at the places I went you probably can guess that there is a lot of traveling involve. Have to move to a new hotel almost everyday except for the last 2 days in Shanghai. Overall is really a great experience for me. Learned a lot bout the country and visited some really amazing places. My personal favorite would be the water village in Wuzhen. I will definitely come here for a personal retreat if i had the chance next time.

Next stop Taiwan!

Just to leave some text

2010-11-10T17:42:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I just want to tell someone...

It got nothing to do with your fork!

Checking out Uniqlo

2010-11-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

Went to check out the hype at Uniqlo today. Notice there is no queue and the crowd is just normal not even close to what I heard about it. Probably is because the hype has gone down and the good stuffs and sizes are gone. Manage to get my self a UJ at 49.90 promotional price. Took me some time to dig out the size I want. I think is the only one left, lucky me. I don't really like their licensed collaboration Tshirts though, mainly because it feels like I am a doing free advertising for the brand. Ironically, I grab myself a piece too because I saw the brand of the battery I am using with my flashgun so I've decided to give my support since it only cost 29 bucks. The quality of the clothe is not bad I must say but i definitely wont buy one if it is priced at 59.90 which is the original price.

Deep down

2010-10-29T03:46:00.000+08:00

I wont say it ... if it doesn't shows

No shortcut

2010-10-25T02:44:00.000+08:00

Shortcut is a route that is shorter than the usual one. Sometimes in life we are tempted to take shortcuts to reach our desires or destiny faster. Taking a shortcut might take us to where we want to be faster but often times the "success" wont last long. The reason is simple, taking shortcut means that we trust our way other than God's way. We believe we can reach our goal faster and better and refuse to trust and obey His ways. There is a point in my life that I went ahead of God, in other words I took a shortcut which I believe will get me to what I want faster. That's right, it don't last long and I fell. By the grace of God, He walk me through the shadow of the valley of death and not only that He brought me out stronger and better than before.

It requires a painful fall because of my own foolishness that I gained a deeper relationship with my Daddy. Worth it? Yes... every bit of it. I'm willing to carry the cross. I am not interested with another shortcut.

"Shortcuts are always short-sighted"

Mission trip to Jerantut

2010-10-18T14:38:00.000+08:00

It's my 2nd mission trip in my life. Is truly a great and new experience for me. This mission trip is so different from the one that I've been in Tanjung Malim. This time the glowers and one united people went to Kampung Paya Lintah in Jerantut to do ministry for the orang asli there. Despite so many unexpected situations arises, I must say the whole team had work their best to adapt and flow with the changes. Is truly a test of strength, obedience and faith from God. God is teaching us that our eyes is on Him throughout the whole mission trip and indeed the whole team had a great and memorable experience all together.

Personally, it was another whole different experience for me. Compare to the previous mission trip I went, it is a complete contrast especially in the people area. Having said that, I must say both the mission trip that I've been to have their own specific challenges that I did gained a lot of lessons out of it. This mission trip had brought back a lot of memories to me. It is a privilege to serve God. I am blessed to be a blessing.

One & Glow United with Pastor Jebon

Our self made little souvenir for the families in Kampung Paya Lintah as a remembrance.

More pictures @facebook, part 1 and part 2

Restart

2010-10-12T21:21:00.001+08:00

I wish there is one for me to push... is there??

God is good

2010-10-09T04:45:00.000+08:00

I've finally gotten my results for my final semester. As usual, my heart will be beating fast when I am logging in and clicking through the links to get my results. Going through the final semester this year is seriously tough for me because at the same time I had to walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Is only by His sufficient grace and strength that I manage to go through every assignments, exams and my final year project. I'm glad I made it and finished this race. He had once proven His faithfulness in my life. Seeing the results of that 2 subjects, I am stunned and at the same time my heart is overwhelmed with indescribable gratitude and thankfulness to my Daddy. He is too good. I don't deserve it at all. I know I didn't do very well for my final year project which the results are still pending and I needed this 2 subjects to compensate back the grades. I don't expect much for my FYP and I am in total surrender to Him in everything nowadays. Whatever He gives, I receive with a thankful heart. He is good, all the time and He once proven that He is faithful to His promises. I know there is more to come and I will live each day with greater expectancy. The best is yet to come...

Psalm 5:12 (New International Version)

¹² For surely, O LORD, you bless the righteous;
you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

Just to add a post

2010-10-04T04:33:00.000+08:00

I manage to own an IPhone 4 32GB for 4 hours.
I get another year free data plan from maxis every month for my prepaid plan.
I guess I have to carry 2 phones for another year?
I am still faithful to my 3G[S] (hopefully)
I am going on a mission trip soon.
I am happier these days. Don't ask me why cause is indescribable.
I thank God for everything in my life.
I am contented with my life.
I love Jesus.

I love random.

回头看看

2010-09-30T17:20:00.000+08:00

Since people are making such a big hoohah for me posting Chinese words in facebook, I shall name this post title in Chinese.

After a round of late mamak with my buddies, I was so stuffed with food that I am unable to put myself to sleep. With eyes wide open, I've decided to spend some time reading back the journals I've wrote few months back. Looking back, I was surprised to see what a journey I've went through. It brings back so much memories and mixed emotions. Can't believe that I've wrote so much in that space of mine. As days goes by, I am leaving less footprints in that space probably because my mind is getting empty and emptier. Till a day that I no longer remember any of the yesterdays, is time to wipe everything off from that space.

I'm still not where I need to be, but I thank God that I am not where I used to be.

It doesn't have to make sense always

2010-09-27T03:35:00.000+08:00

When I was a little girl, my mother used to embroider a great deal. I would sit at her knee and look up from the floor and ask what she was doing. She informed me that she was embroidering.

I told her that it looked like a mess from where I was. As from the underside I watched her work within the boundaries of the little round hoop that she held in her hand, I complained to her that it sure looked messy from where I sat. She would smile at me, look down and gently say, "My daughter, you go about your playing for awhile, and when I am finished with my embroidering, I will put you on my knee and let you see it from my side."

I would wonder why she was using dark threads along with the bright ones and why they seemed so jumbled from my view. A few minutes would pass and then I would hear Mother's voice say, "My daughter, come sit on my knee." This I did only to be surprised and thrilled to see a beautiful flower or a sunset.

I could not believe it, because from underneath it looked so messy.

Then Mother would say to me, "My daughter, from underneath it did look messy and jumbled, but you did not realize that there was a pre-drawn plan on the top. It was a design. I was only following it. Now look at it from my side and you will see what I was doing."

Many times through the years I have looked up to God in heaven and said, " What is going on here? What are you doing?" He has answered, "I am embroidering your life." I responded, "But it looks like a mess to me down here. It seems so jumbled. The threads seem so dark. Why can't they all be bright?"

"My child, a powerful voice from above said, you go about your business of doing My business, and one day I will bring you to Heaven and put you on My knee and you will see the plan from My side."

Sometimes, it will seems like everything are just messed up and wrong in our life but don't forget we have yet to see the beautiful picture that He is painting in our life. You will smile when you see it.. but make sure you are determine enough to see the completion of the picture.

Ponder ponder

2010-09-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

It's been almost a month since I graduated. Waiting for my results to come out and hopefully it don't turn our to be bad. I've spend times catching up with my friends and also recharging back my "batteries". Spend some moment of solitude and isolation to also plan for my future. I've been receiving a lot and I guess is time to ponder and think and put it into actions.

Reading spree

2010-09-16T16:16:00.000+08:00

I've never like reading. Few pages would put me to sleep. Entering into the next chapter I would probably forget what I have read before that. Maybe is a sign of growing older, I've realize I read a lot throughout the few months back and I am still on the reading spree catching up with all the wonderful reading materials that I've collected.

My 1st Personal Retreat Highlights

2010-09-12T14:29:00.000+08:00

The place where I spent 3 days 2 nights in Cameron Highlands. Heritage hotel located at one of the biggest and most happening town called Tanah Rata. What I like most about this hotel it is located a distance away from the town where you need to take a short road to enter into this hotel. The hotel is somehow isolated and peaceful surrounded by nature. Just nice for me!

The essential stuffs for my retreat. My life application bible, NECF prayer booklet, Knowing God intimately book by Joyce Meyer and of course my journal.

One of the Tea plantation in Cameron Highlands. Superb view isn't it?

Little red jazzy that brought me up the mountain. This is the tea boh plantation estate. It took some really challenging drive up to it as the road is seriously narrow and winding.

One of the night, I had my "strawberrymoment" at one of the dessert shop. It was a nice place with nice songs and I sat down there enjoying my dessert while reading my book.

Strawberry Oreo Cheese Cake

Mango Craze mix with strawberries and some tomatoes

I pay a visit to cactus point where I get to see lots and lots of weird and big cactus that I've never seen before in my lifetime.

I really like this one. It is some small little cactus with a pinky color top.

More cactus...

Last but not least, the most important highlight for the whole retreat is of course what I've actually received from God. Up in the mountain, God truly spoke a lot to me and deposited His words in my heart that would lead me on to the next phase of my life. No doubt, it is a fruitful and blessed retreat for me.

This view is from the balcony of my room.

A crossroad garden facing my hotel room. Amazing sometimes how God spoke.

Jeremiah 6:16 (New International Version)

¹⁶ This is what the LORD says:
       "STAND at the CROSSROADS and LOOK;
       ASK for the ancient paths,
       ask where the good way is, and walk in it,
       and you will FIND rest for your souls.

I climbed up to the viewpoint of the Boh Estate. A 174m steep climb up through the tea plants. When I reached the top it is just me alone there with the amazing view. As I go through the stormy days in life, I always imagine myself standing at the mountain top and just spending time there all alone looking at the beautiful view. My dream come true.

Isaiah 52:7 (New International Version)

⁷ How beautiful on the mountains
       are the feet of those who bring good news,
       who proclaim peace,
       who bring good tidings,
       who proclaim salvation,

Packed up..

2010-09-05T19:16:00.000+08:00

It's time to go on a mountaintop experience with Him....

Workout

2010-09-03T14:05:00.001+08:00

It's my first time stepping into a gym yesterday night together with my buddies who put me on a trial period for a try out. After some workout sessions for almost the whole body, it feels like I've just been beaten up by someone with "Wing Chun". Considering it is the first time, so waking up in the morning with pain everywhere is expected especially it has been like 213123 days since I went for a basketball session or working out. Seems like the muscle ache is not really that bad as i thought except for my left hand. Ouchz..Should I be committed to a gym for 2 years? hmmm...

No fear

2010-08-31T04:51:00.000+08:00

When I face oppression and challenges in my life, it is really draining at times. Disappointments & frustrations are inevitable. But...how comforting it is when He who is always there spoke this to me when I needed encouragement the most. No one knows me better than You not even myself.

Isaiah 41:10

¹⁰ So do not fear, for I am with you;
       do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
       I will strengthen you and help you;
       I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Nowadays...

2010-08-27T04:17:00.000+08:00

If our technology had existed in Jesus’ day, our Bibles might read: “Jesus asked His disciples, ‘Who do people say that the Son of Man is?’ but they were checking their e-mail and missed the question.” Or “A third time He asked him, ‘Simon . . . do you love Me?’ Peter was hurt that Jesus asked the question a third time, but then his cell phone rang and he replied, ‘I’m sorry, Lord, I’ve got to take this.’ ” Or on Pentecost, “Peter continued preaching for a long time, and a handful of people believed and were baptized while thousands more texted and sent out tweets on Twitter”

Technology can stifle our spiritual growth in subtle ways. The first Christians “devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching, and to fellowship, and to sharing in meals (including the Lord’s Supper), and to prayer”. None of these things come easily in our wired world.

Who has the time or discipline to study the apostles’ teaching and pray when cable television and the Internet jangle with unimportant yet interesting diversions? Let’s face it, our lives would be little changed if we missed that latest score, review, or celebrity gossip. Yet filling our minds with such minutiae comes at some cost, for we may unknowingly project our reading of the virtual world upon the eternal truths of God’s Word. When everything is trivial, then anything is trivial.
Fellowship and community are thought to be the strengths of our new media, but busy texters ignore us and intrusive phone calls interrupt us. We often sit in the presence of bodies whose minds are elsewhere.

Lest you think I’m simply a hater of today’s technology, ask yourself this: When the Good Shepherd leads you beside “peaceful streams,” do you “rest in green meadows” or reach for your iPhone?

Source

One of my daily devotional material which I find it rather interesting and decided to share it on my blog. I can't agree more that nowadays we spend more time facing and interacting with all the latest widgets and web applications such as facebook and twitter more than the time we spend praying and reading His word. For those that doesn't know, I have been fasting facebook and twitter for approximately 2 months.
The reason why I started this fast is I notice how much valuable time I actually spend on checking out all the updates in facebook and twitter and at times I find it very distracting. When I cut myself off of such medias and really use all the time I had to read, pray and meditate on His word. I found that I grew so much deeper in relationship with God and how much knowledge that I've gained through reading. I believe there are certain seasons in our life that we need to withdraw from all these things and really come into a time of solitude in seeking God. I know is my season for God had called me to it and I've been giving my very best to seek His will for the next level of my life. I am not sure when would I be back on those medias as the fast go on I am starting to enjoy my time with God without much distraction. There is a different type of strength that you could obtained when you seek Him in a time of solitude.

"There is no internet connection in the desert"

Done

2010-08-26T04:15:00.000+08:00

I'm done with my studies!

Thank God for holding me throughout my journey in pursuing my tertiary education. I've finally done with it and all that I need to do now is to pray that my results will not turn out to be too bad. I surrender everything into His mighty hands. It's time to start a new journey. The question that is lingering in my mind for a month back "What's next?"

Where is your root?

2010-08-21T18:13:00.001+08:00

I love the parable of the sowers told by Jesus. It basically tells us the 4 conditions of the hearts of people in this world. I used to look at it that every person would surely have 1 type of the condition of the heart but when I look deeper into that passage I realize that even for myself in my life in different seasons and timings I've actually came across that 4 different condition of the heart mentioned by Jesus.

It is so important to know that our root are planted deep in a solid foundation which is the fertile soil of the word of God. What happen if we don't have a good foundation?

Mark 4:17 (New Living Translation)

¹⁷ But since they don’t have deep roots, they don’t last long. They fall away as soon as they have problems or are persecuted for believing God’s word.

Is your root deep enough to withstand the troubles and difficulties in life?

Happiness or Joy?

2010-08-20T15:24:00.001+08:00

You open up my eyes to see the difference between joy and happiness months ago.
You reaffirmed me that I've made the right choice.
You told me nothing in this world can satisfy my need other than You.
You came into my life through the brokenness and darkness.
You light up my world and show me great and unsearchable things that I've never know.

O how would I not want more of the JOY I found in the desert?
O what is happiness that will never give me an eternal satisfaction?

Please give me more of You.

Getting there

2010-08-16T12:07:00.001+08:00

Handing in my last assignment in few hours time.
Exams coming up next week and I am all done with my studies.
Time flies for me.
I guess I shall start planning about the retreat I had in mind one month ago.

"It's transition time, are you ready"

Think bout it..

2010-08-12T00:20:00.001+08:00

During one of my quiet time, I look at the passage where Jesus leave His disciples and went to the garden of Gethsamane to pray. It was before He was going to be captured as He was betrayed by Judas one of His disciples.

What really caught my attention is .. Luke 22:42:44

[42] "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." [43] An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. [44] And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.

Jesus knows that His greatest suffering will come and He kneel down praying so earnestly till His sweat was like blood dripping out! Imagine how intense that He feels.. It shows that Jesus is just like us fully human. Human that will feel all the pain and hurt from this broken world. Even Jesus would prayed to the Father and ask that "If it is possible, would you take this suffering that is coming away from me?" It really struck me that even Jesus know that the suffering coming on Him is so great that He even asked God to remove that cup from Him. Of course even Jesus ask for it He is always faithful to His Father will and it teaches us one thing. No matter how painful or suffering your journey of life would be, God would always use it and turn it to a blessing or glory. Only and only you are willing to endure it and follow His will.

Often time we think that life is all about a bed of roses, when trouble comes we turn away from it and try to seek comfort from different things that could ease or pain or help us not to remember it. Some wold even walked away and drift away from God because they think God doesn't love them for bringing so much suffering into their life. Imagine that, if Jesus ran away that night and don't want to take on the suffering on that cross.. Would this world receive one of the greatest blessing and gift ever that are given out so graciously and freely by God the Father? God the Father turned Jesus greatest suffering to the world's greatest gift. Think of it, each time we failed to endure and obey a suffering or trouble through His ways.. what are the greatest blessing, rewards and lessons we missed from Him?

Sometimes, I think that momentary satisfactory that we can seek from the world is not worth for the eternal gift that we will miss at the end of the day. Just something I really wish to share... a thought to ponder for each and every one of us.. Would we run away and turn away from Him when trouble comes or would we be stubbornly holding on to Him no matter what befall us?

"Nothing worthwhile comes easy"

Spoiled!

2010-08-10T16:06:00.000+08:00

It's dying....

It has begun

2010-08-08T02:05:00.001+08:00

It's time to P.U.S.H even more...
It's time to pound heaven's door...
It's time to call down a breakthrough...
It's time to call down a revival...

p/s:- It's 40days NECF prayer and fasting again people. Let me know if you got any prayer request and give me an honor to pray on your behalf.

Seasons in life

2010-08-04T17:04:00.002+08:00

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly, so he sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away.

The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer, and the youngest son in the fall.

When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe what they had seen.

The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted. The second son said no, it was covered with green buds and full of promise. The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen. The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit, full of life and fulfillment.

The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they had each seen but only one season in the tree's life.

He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season, and that the essence of who they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from that life can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer, and the fulfillment of your fall.

Is time to grab one?

2010-07-30T18:32:00.001+08:00

To all the IPhone lovers, the 4 is here in Singapore with an incredible cheap price

Check it out at the Singapore online apple store HERE

For those who are desperate to get your hands on one, if you have a friend or relative in Singapore that can help you to purchased by all means grab it while stocks are available. With the 3 weeks estimated shipping time, if is me I would rather wait for the arrival of the 4 at our shores first to check out the pricing that Maxis and Digi could offer since our neighbor could offer such a cheap outright purchase price.

Well, many thought that I would upgrade to this 4 but I am not planning to because my 3GS is still new and satisfying me to the fullest (this statement might change when I get my hands on the 4) and one more main reason is because I will be extremely guilty if I need to go rob another bank for money. (Just kidding) Haha.. so yeah if I have the money I would definitely not hesitate to get one but for now I am waiting for the replacement model for the 4 which are coming out at the mid of next year.

For those that are worried bout the reception issue, personally I think that problem doesn't affect each phones and as I know only a minority batch of phones are affected by it. Whether it is design flaw or bad reception area or whats not I think is not that of a big issue that would stop me from getting one "if i have the money". Furthermore, let's say you are so unlucky to get a unit with the reception issue the problem could be easily solve with using a casing. I wonder who would use their precious 4 barely naked and expose them for scratches.

"Time to swipe your credit cards, anyone?"

Do something

2010-07-30T03:13:00.001+08:00

Throughout my challenging times, God had been nurturing a new interest in me. Something that I used to not prefer all this while which is READING. I've plenty of time to read, as nowadays I am training myself to spend lesser time in front of my computer unless I've something important to do, read my devotions and to write my journals. The rest of my time I will spend it catching up with the books that I never know existed in my house, praying&listening to God and the finishing the remaining assignments left before I graduate in few weeks time.

Went for a haircut today at my regular saloon in Times Square after settling with the hard bound documentation of my FYP in uni. Spend sometime walking around and reading some books in Borders and MPH. Before leaving the bookstore, I saw this book called Do Something and as I flipped around it looks like an interesting book so I decided to grab it. Went to Starbucks and spend an hour there reading the first five chapters of the book while enjoying my Chocolate Chip Cream.

All I have to say, is that one hour is truly a revelation and affirmation from God!

"The safest place you can be is to be in the Will of God"

Conviction

2010-07-26T17:37:00.001+08:00

I've been questioning a lot.

I think the key to it is not to ask question but is to endure and trust.

"Conviction will not be proven strong if it is not put under pressure"

I wonder which desert I am in now .. haha

Reminder

2010-07-25T06:07:00.003+08:00

Never leave the game till the final whistle is blow
Stay in position
Don't try to take someone else position
Always be ready
Always listen to the Coach instruction and direction

Decision

2010-07-23T06:31:00.001+08:00

Early in the morning, I am still up.
Simple because there is something stirring in my heart and it needed a decision and direction.
I've surrendered it to God till I receive a definite answer from Him, then I shall move.

P.U.S.H

2010-07-22T03:22:00.000+08:00

A meaningful gift from a friend

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (New International Version)

¹⁶Be joyful always; ¹⁷pray continually; ¹⁸give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Fatigue

2010-07-21T11:28:00.000+08:00

Taking some time off to drop a blog post before I hand in my FYP

It finally come to an end

2 more assignments + exam to go!

Extreme sleep deprive

Wrong timing

2010-07-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

Due to my itchy hands playing around with the root files of my IPhone. Somehow I got some cydia apps screwed up which causes the whole system keep crashing into safe mode. Only solution is to restore the phone and is such a hassle because I am not interested with the latest OS4.0.1 which currently not jailbreakable yet. Apple with their smart move will not allow you to update your phone with older firmwares. Somehow you can get it done with a little extra work here and there.

Currently running on OS3.1.3 + Jailbreak

My FYP is going to due tomorrow and I am playing around with my Iphone.. something is not right with me

Unsual update

2010-07-17T05:12:00.001+08:00

Lamentations 3:19-21 (The Message)

^19-21I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness,
   the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.
I remember it all—oh, how well I remember—
   the feeling of hitting the bottom.
But there's one other thing I remember,
   and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:

Hebrews 12:11 (New Living Translation)

¹¹ No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.

"All I know is it will be a thousand times better than the present..if we overcome correctly"

Stress check

2010-07-04T23:23:00.001+08:00

Oily Hair - Checked
Pimples - Checked
Headache - Checked
Insomnia - ~~Pending~~ Checked
Lost of Appetite - Pending

Splurge!

2010-07-01T04:36:00.000+08:00

Canon S90

New member to photography family! Was contemplating between this and the Panasonic LX3 and finally ended up with this one. The main reason is because the S90 is smaller and more compact and not as complicated compare to LX3 and I am not the one that is going to use this camera mainly so I reckon it will be more suitable for my sisters. Didn't really have time to play around with it but I must say this a really a good compact camera to lug around if you don't wish to carry your bulky DSLR around most of the time. You can adjust the aperture, shutter speed and the ISO just like the DSLR to craft your pictures. The package I bought comes with 8GB SDHC, screen protector + 1 year MAA insurance and original leather case.

Some other stuffs I bought for the sisters and daddy.

A cheapo graphic card for younger sister to do some graphic design work with photoshop and alsooooo

to support ...

A 22 inch LCD with LED technology! A seriously sharp LCD and it definitely beats the crap out of my 24 inch LCD. I want LED too =(

A "proper" card reader for myself.

Bought 2 cheaper card reader previously and they work like crap and don't support SDHC cards.

No more cheap stuffs. Learn my lesson.

Spend almost one whole day getting all these stuffs and it definitely hurt my feet. Settle down at Viewnet hub cafe to work on my FYP with my 2 buddies (which turn out to be quite disappointing)

Juz You and me

2010-06-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

1 Peter 2:23
“When they hurled their insults at Him, He did not retaliate; when He suffered, He made no threats. Instead, He entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly.”

So tempted to defend ourselves when we are wronged? So tempted to stand up and tell the whole world how you are mistreated or tell everyone about the bad treachery that you have gone through? So tempted to claim back your right and justice?

but... there is always this soothing voice that says "Be still, just leave it to me, justice is mine"

I heard that voice .. do you?

Just for 1$

2010-06-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

Ding Dong! you got a parcel!

Finally it was here!

A small gift from Lakewood Church in USA just for for a donation as little as 1$

Unbelievable right? They deliver it all the way here just for a donation of 1 dollar!

Double for your trouble comes in double CDs too and lots of lemons!

I am truly blessed by these audio sermons which I've ordered one month ago.

God is good!

p/s: Anyone who would like to listen to sermons feel free to get it from me =)

Be enlightened

2010-06-20T20:05:00.002+08:00

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband.

For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in a showroom,
and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.
As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband
had purchased the diamond ring.
Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study.
Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife, and told her how much he loved her..
He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box.
Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold.
Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, 'With all your
money you give me a Bible?' And stormed out of the house, leaving her husband.
Many years passed and the lady was very successful in business. She
managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family, but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years.
But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things.
When she arrived at her ex-husband's house, sudden sadness and regret filled her heart. She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years before.
With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. Her
ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse,

Matt 7:11,
'And if you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more shall your Heavenly Father, who is in heaven,
give what is good to those who ask Him?'

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of
the Bible. It had a diamond ring, with her name engraved on it --
the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom.
On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words. 'LUV U ALWAYS'.
How many times do we miss God's blessings, because they are not
packaged as we expected? I trust you enjoyed this.
Pass it on to others.
Do not spoil what you have, by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT,
IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS.
ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO BIGGER & BETTER THINGS.

''The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart.''

Art of sailing

2010-06-19T08:50:00.000+08:00

Have you master the art of sailing?

No?

Guess is time to start learning because the storm is coming real soon and there is no place to hide anymore.

"Fair weather faith is not faith at all"

More than conquerors

2010-06-17T02:26:00.002+08:00

I am not asking for the mountain to be remove because I am going to conquer it.

I am not asking for the climb to be easier but I am going to ask for more strength and power to go on.

I am not going to give up because I know the scenery and the sun rise at the peak is worth all the effort.

All I know is when I reach the top of the mountain, I will be more than conquerors!

Romans 8:37 (NIV)

....we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

Inspired

2010-06-14T15:02:00.005+08:00

Have any of you come across someone who wear a mask/facade living their life or are you one of those people?

I came across one of my friend's blog and I believe she really spoke everything out clearly in my heart and I believe is a no coincidence for me to stumble upon her blog. Rather than rewriting what she wrote I shall just quote what she has written here because I really think she wrote it perfectly clear and well.

When Adam and Eve sinned, the highlight is actually not on the fruit that they ate, but it's on the life of truth that they failed to live.They hid, they ran, they accused one another and they failed to face the truth that they had done something wrong. Just like all of us today. I believe not many of us has the courage to strip our masks off and tell the world who we really are. Our life is surrounded by sin. But how many of us can stand up and tell people how ugly we are? If this is the truth to you, I believe you still do know Jesus. You do not know His love at all.

1 John 4:17-19 (New International Version)

¹⁷In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. ¹⁸There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
¹⁹We love because he first loved us.

His love is to enable us to have boldness when our sins are judged.
His love casts out all fear. And that includes the fear of rejection from people, the fear of losing the good impression people have towards you.
His love is patient and understanding in a world of intolerance.
His love brings clarity of mind to those who are confused, rest to the weary, hope to the hopeless and strength to those who feel that they can't go on.
His love can heal and mend a broken heart.
His love drives away darkness.

If you cannot live in truth, you are the first one rejecting yourself.

I've been through darkness. I loved the way it protected my ugliness. But one day light came in. It showed me truth. It wasn't easy. But the day I stepped in, I never have to live in darkness again.

Credit to Crystal Low

My thoughts:
It is very true indeed that sometimes we do put on a mask living our life. We fear that when our ugliness and weaknesses is reveal we will be rejected by people. We might be ashamed of what we have done deep inside us. We think that we can hide it all in us and show a different us in front of people some might even think no one would know their ugliness and continue on living their life in a deceitful way. Well I would say no matter how well or how smart you think you can hide it you will never be able to outsmart the Almighty one. You choose to live in denial because you fail to grasp what is the TRUTH and LOVE that He already shown on the cross. If we do not allow the Light of truth to enter into our life we will never be able to get out of darkness.

I am so encourage by what she had wrote and it answered some of the doubts and uncertainties in me. Whether you like a not I believe most of us will tend to wear a mask when we live our life it is just a matter of how big or how ugly the things we are hiding in us. We are all imperfect humans after all but we should never fail to see how great is His love that can restore us and build us up to who He really want us to be. We will only destroy ourselves at the end of the day if we keep on living in denial and investing our life in things that can only give us a temporal joy.

"Just be yourselves" is not being who you want to be but is to be who He wants you to be.

Disastrous

2010-06-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

Proverbs 9:13-18

¹³ The woman Folly is loud;
       she is undisciplined and without knowledge.
¹⁴ She sits at the door of her house,
       on a seat at the highest point of the city,
¹⁵ calling out to those who pass by,
       who go straight on their way.
¹⁶ "Let all who are simple come in here!"
       she says to those who lack judgment.
¹⁷ "Stolen water is sweet;
       food eaten in secret is delicious!"
¹⁸ But little do they know that the dead are there,
       that her guests are in the depths of the grave.

Clearly and vividly punch into my mind!

Eyes on You

2010-06-12T15:57:00.000+08:00

Being perplexed, I say,

"Lord, make it right!

Night is as day to You,

Darkness as light.

I am afraid to touch

Things that involve so much;

My trembling hand may shake,

My skilless hand may break;

Yours can make no mistake."

Being in doubt I say,

"Lord, make it plain;

Which is the true, safe way?

Which would be gain?

I am sure not wise to know,

Nor sure of foot to go;

What is so clear to Thee,

Lord, make it clear to me!"

-A.B Simpson-

2 Chronicles 20:12

¹² ....We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you."

Twenty Two

2010-06-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me!

Dear Lord, 22 years ago you have beautifully created me in my mother's womb and you have brought me into this world. I pray that on this special day that you will continue to use me to be your vessel to channel your blessings and love to the lives of others. May your healing grace be on my toe as it is giving me a horrible pain for one whole night that I can't even sleep till now. Thank you for pouring your abundance of blessings into my life despite going through trials and afflictions your favor and your protection is always there with me. Thank you Lord for today, for you have not only granted me another year in my life but also a year full of spiritual blessings! May Your promises come to past in Your timing.In Jesus name, Amen.

Proverbs 23:15

My son, if your heart is wise, then my heart will be glad;

My little toe

2010-06-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

This is how my little toe looks like now. The bandage is a bit horrible because I did some "modification" to it. The physician wrap my other toe together and I feel extremely uncomfortable with it and decided to cut it off to free my other little toe.

Just a note that my toe is not broken it is just dislocated. But I know that a lot of you think that it is broken by looking at the aftermath picture. I think it might look a bit gross to some people, I decided not to put it up in my blog to scare my readers. LOL

It takes time to completely heal because toe and fingers is one of the part that has the most nerves which means it is extremely painful when you injure any of it. Each time I visit the chinese physician I have to groan in pain when they massage it. You guys might think they are doing it the wrong way but i think if i just leave it there following the western treatment which is "just let it heal by itself" I could hardly even bend my toe in 2 weeks.

Oh yeah, I accidentally kicked it and I've to tear in pain this morning. Ouchz!

Rescue

2010-06-07T02:50:00.000+08:00

Saved!

Sweet as honey

2010-06-06T02:41:00.003+08:00

Ezekiel 3:3

³ Then he said to me, "Son of man, eat this scroll I am giving you and fill your stomach with it." So I ate it, and it tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth.

The word of God is full of sweetness and when you savor every bits of it you will never resist it. Don't trust me? Try it yourself.

Camp is over and I believe a lot of us when camp has ended it feels like God is far away once again mainly because a lot of us will be so caught up with so many fun filling activities, stress with assignments, hectic work schedule and yada yada.

God is always close to us. It only takes you to take a few steps closer to Him to really spend that moment seeking Him in your quiet time. God not only want to be close to us in camp but He want to be close to us each and everyday of our lives. Despite how busy you are or how caught up you are with planning and enjoying life, just take that little step to draw closer to your Father in heaven.

Your promise

2010-06-04T01:46:00.003+08:00

Psalm 71:20

²⁰ Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter,
       you will restore my life again;
       from the depths of the earth
       you will again bring me up.

Once again, I am reminded of Your promises. Though I am walking through the valley of the shadow of death, You have been with me all the time and I starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am coming back out soon!

Question Mark

2010-06-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

I wonder and wonder and wonder and wonder and wonder...

I think and think and think and think and think and think....

Everything just doesn't seems right and make sense to me but I know that Your ways is always higher and I will never understand what You are doing. All I know is I can fully trust You.

Isaiah 55:8-9 (New International Version)
⁸ "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
       neither are your ways my ways,"
       declares the LORD.
⁹ "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
       so are my ways higher than your ways
       and my thoughts than your thoughts.

What I got from Couz Camp 2010?

2010-06-01T13:54:00.001+08:00

Bee stung on my right hand.

Dislocated toe.

and ultimately a bigger HEART, a bigger FAITH & a bigger PURPOSE.

I will share more when I get all my things done and settled.

1 PETER 5:7-10 NCV

7 Give all your worries to him, because he cares about you.
8 Control yourselves and be careful! The devil, your enemy,
goes around like a roaring lion looking for someone to eat.
9 Refuse to give in to him, by standing strong in your faith.
You know that your Christian family all over the world is
having the same kinds of suffering.
10 And after you suffer for a short time, God, who gives all
grace, will make everything right. He will make you strong and
support you and keep you from falling. He called you to share
in his glory in Christ, a glory that will continue forever.

Off for couz camp 2010

2010-05-27T10:52:00.002+08:00

Off for Couz camp at Bukit Tinggi, Pahang for 4 days.

This year Couz camp is different. I can feel God had something big for me.

I'm coming for you Lord!

When I look back...

2010-05-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

all i see is your faithfulness
&

The BEST is yet to come...

James 5:16

The prayer of the righteous man is powerful and effective

Peace

2010-05-23T05:18:00.001+08:00

Psalms 119:165
Great peace have those who love Your law, And nothing causes them to stumble.

Proverbs 16:7
When a man's ways please the LORD, He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.

Your peace had calm the violent storm. Your peace assures me that You are there. Your peace had cause the enemies to flee from me. Thank you Jesus.

Disappoint Not

2010-05-22T21:33:00.002+08:00

Being a normal human, along your journey in life you will meet people who will fail you and disappoint you. You think that you give in so much but yet all you receive is disappointment and rejection. Or perhaps you are serving God in some ministry and no doubt there are disappointment and people might not even appreciate what you have done for them.

I am waiting for my dinner to be serve just now and I just took some time to read a few passage of Hebrews in my iPhone NIV bible. I came across this verse:

Hebrews 6:10
10 God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.

Though people might not appreciate you, fail you, disappoint you, hurt you, ignore you, reject you. Ultimately, God sees your heart and He will not forget what you have given to His kingdom. God is please and someday God will reward you for your hard work. All we need to do is just to fix our eyes on Jesus and trust Him with patience.

May the promises of God be with those that are jaded and tired of disappointments for Jesus will never fail His faithful followers! Amen!

Haihz morning

2010-05-21T13:26:00.000+08:00

I slept at around 6am+ and I overslept and miss my morning class.

Thank God that my supervisor is on leave today or else it will add on to my guilt as I've tried to arrange a meeting with him this morning.

Get up from my bed and was struck with an excruciating pain on my neck when I try to stretch. It is seriously painful whenever I try to tilt my head down.

I don't like this morning.

A cup of coffee

2010-05-20T14:30:00.001+08:00

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her.
She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans.She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl.She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see?"

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee" she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.
The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma the daughter then asked,

"What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.

~ The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
~ The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
~ The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter.
"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?
Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff?
Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain.
When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor.
If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level?
How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human & enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

A thought

2010-05-18T03:31:00.005+08:00

Something just came into my mind. It is always my tendency to face the problem rather than putting it aside. But of course at times certain problem has to be put aside so that we can tackle things that are more important but still we have to go back to the problem and work it out. I never like to push things aside and in a way taking issues/problems for granted. Why I say so is because experience had taught me that problems and issues that are not dealt with will keep repeating in your life.

I believe God has put that problem there because there is something He wants to teach us through it. Imagine each time we brush things off and act as though it has never happened, what would we get at the end of the day? Perhaps till a point of your life you will just see yourselves living in a cycle or routine repeating the same mistakes over and over again and still wondering why it is like that. It is so much easier to just dump things aside rather than working it out because abandoning it takes no effort and striving at all. But, each time we do that we just miss out the opportunity God gave us to grow up to be a better person. Problems are meant to be solve and working it out through His grace and guidance. No pain no gain.

No one will create a lock without the key. Similarly, God won't give problems without solutions

Drifting

2010-05-16T20:54:00.000+08:00

Hebrews 2:1
¹We must pay more careful attention, therefore, to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away.

Drifting is like a silent killer.

It happens unconsciously and possibly by the time you realize, it is already too late.

It is like a boat that is not anchored in something solid. The boat will gradually drift away and end up shipwreck.

Where did you anchored your soul?

+Plus

2010-05-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

+♥

+Patience

+Faith

It all starts in your heart.

Lost

2010-05-12T16:10:00.002+08:00

There are so many things need to be done.
So many of them.
I just don't know where to start.

Can I just dump it all and take a long break from all the things I am going through?

Twitty

2010-05-10T15:10:00.002+08:00

Added twitter widget on my blog for the sake of making my blog looks cooler.

I am not really fond to using twitter. In fact, my twitter account is around 2 years old if I am not mistaken. It was quite pointless to me back then because none of my friends is using it and I've registered and account just to check out what is it all about.

Now, twitter is so so so famous compare to the time when I first discover it. I guess one of the reason is twitter is a very simple application where you just need to register and start crapping all the way with it and of course it can be sync with your facebook.

Most memorable Mother's Day

2010-05-09T23:00:00.006+08:00

2 weeks ago Lindy asked the guys in the cell whether who were interested to participate in a mother's day presentation during service. Of course, no one actually responded because you have to go on stage during service! Lindy was like asking me and I am really reluctant because it is so scary thinking that you need to go up that stage to give a presentation. Somehow in my spirit, I sense this is an opportunity God had given me and yes I know whenever God open the door I must seize the opportunity.

I am not a very expressive person especially to my family. Though I really love and care about them but I wouldn't know how to express it to them. I don't really have much conversation with my mom and I always tell God how can I fix this tough part here in my family as I really want a deeper relationship and conversation with my mom. More over, thinking back I've never really say the three words to my mom which is "I Love You". I prayed to God and really hope God can work his ways through our relationship.

Don't you think God is amazing and He hears our prayer? He gave me an opportunity to be on that stage to share a story of my mom and to tell her I love her. Frankly speaking, I am seriously nervous even thinking of it. But in my heart, I know I am doing it for His glory and of course for my mom. Yeap, I was there up on that stage for 3 services sharing things deep inside my heart about my mom and though I kinda messed up a bit during the last service because knowing my mom was there I was really nervous compare to the previous 2 services.

God is truly amazing mom. He made me standing up on that stage in front of thousand of people witnessing just to say "I love you very much". I really hope you enjoyed the whole service and the presentation. My prayer would always be with you so that someday I can witness your salvation in Jesus Christ.

The 7 presenters and of course with Pastor Lindy who is there guiding us and walking us through the whole presentation preparation. To God be the glory!

Don't dream and drive

2010-05-08T01:35:00.004+08:00

Today I did something embarrassing. I was driving and approaching the toll. Took out the smart tag and when I reach the toll the barrier didn't go up. I reversed and I saw the touchNGo scanner. I am like shitz why I went into the Touch N Go lane. Thank God there were no one behind me and there is a blur passenger sitting beside me. Haha.. I really shouldn't think so much while driving these days...

I got a surprise for u

2010-05-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

Mom, I got a surprise for you... =)

Trust

2010-05-06T17:48:00.004+08:00

I am searching for my lost stone.. where did I lost it .. hmm

Refreshing my 3Gs

2010-05-05T02:38:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time since I last update my IPhone apps. My friend introduce me a new installer called as Installous where it makes the downloading and installing of "cracked" apps so much easier compare to last time. Installous will just download it and you can just straight install the app into your phone compare to previously where you have to download the .ipa file to your pc and sync it through itunes.

Updated some of the old apps and games to the newest version and downloaded some apps to play around. One of the app called hipstamatic is very interesting. Basically is a camera app which takes picture in film/lomo effect.
Check out the pictures

The Storm

2010-05-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

Years ago, a farmer owned land along the Atlantic seacoast.
He constantly advertised for hired hands. Most people were
reluctant to work on farms along the Atlantic . They dreaded the
awful storms that raged across the Atlantic , wreaking havoc on the buildings and crops.
As the farmer interviewed applicants for the job, he received
A steady stream of refusals.

Finally, a short, thin man, well past middle age, approached
the farmer. 'Are you a good farm hand?' the farmer asked him.
'Well, I can sleep when the wind blows,' answered the little man.

Although puzzled by this answer, the farmer, desperate for help,
Hired him. The little man worked well around the farm, busy from
dawn to dusk, and the farmer felt satisfied with the man's work.
Then one night the wind howled loudly in from offshore.
Jumping out of bed, the farmer grabbed a lantern and rushed
next door to the hired hand's sleeping quarters. He shook the
little man and yelled, 'Get up! A storm is coming!
Tie things down before they blow away!'
The little man rolled over in bed and said firmly, 'No
sir. I told you, I can sleep when the wind blows.'

Enraged by the response, the farmer was tempted to fire him on
the spot. Instead, he hurried outside to prepare for the storm.
To his amazement, he discovered that all of the haystacks had
been covered with tarpaulins. The cows were in the barn, the chickens were in the coops, and the doors were barred.
The shutters were tightly secured. Everything was tied down.

Nothing could blow away. The farmer then understood what his
hired hand meant, so he returned to his bed to also sleep while
the wind blew.

When you're prepared, spiritually, mentally, and physically,
you have nothing to fear. Can you sleep when the
wind blows through your life?
The hired hand in the story was able to sleep because he
had secured the farm against the storm.
We secure ourselves against the storms of life by
grounding ourselves in the Word of God.
We don't need to understand, we just need to hold
His hand to have peace in the middle of storms.

Replacement

2010-05-03T17:19:00.002+08:00

After so long I finally got my messenger bag replaced. Apparently, my old one is no longer in production so they replaced me with the black one on the right. Is not that bad though, but I would still prefer the material feel on my old bag. But one good thing is the black one will not get dirty easily and is a lot lighter!

Eneloop!

2010-05-03T00:44:00.000+08:00

Got my Sanyo Eneloop batteries today at YL Camera in pudu plaza. Is quite a famous shop among the photographers so I decided to drop by to ask for the price and indeed is the cheapest I can find compare to those selling online. The shop is so small but is packed with a lot a lot of accessories, cameras and lenses for sale. They are famous for selling 2nd hand bodies, lens and accessories and most of it is in good condition. Do drop by there if you are looking for some 2nd hand DSLRs body or lens.

This is one of the best battery and most recommended to be used in external flash. Is a LSD battery which can retain the power at 90% for 1 year after a full charge which is why is preferred among the photographers and not to mention the faster recycle time for the flash. I tested it with a full blast and is like 1 sec faster recharge than those panasonic alkaline batteries I am currently using. Check out the review.

You can run but you can't hide

2010-05-02T21:27:00.003+08:00

Sometimes listening some songs really give you some inspiration about the word of God. Was listening to this song called Run Devil Run by SNSD and the phrase "You can run but you can't hide" came into my mind.

Psalm 139:7-8

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

Awesome verse ain't it? I still remember back in those days when I was still an unbeliever I was very rebellious when it came to things regarding religion. I've listen tons and tons of things regarding it and I even took the effort to search more information about it. If you guys have read my testimony you guys would know the reason why I want to discover more is to find flaws in it so I can rebuke those who share about it with me. Wrong motive but a good move because by doing so God open my eyes to what is call the absolute truth. Back then, in my heart I know things that I've listen and saw is really good and real but in my heart I just think I can't do it mainly there are things that I am holding on to and not to mention pride and wish I can just run away from it. Yes, I can run but I can't hide from the omnipresence God. He is just there searching for me and revealing Himself over and over again to me each time I attempt to hide till a point that I really told myself I must face this. Stepping into the church and being filled by His presences really make me weak and I really tell God I can't run anymore and I told Him "Just take me Lord".

Genesis 3:8

⁸ Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the LORD God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the LORD God among the trees of the garden.

Adam and eve ran away from God when they know they ate the forbidden fruit and try to hide behind the trees.

Sometimes we really think we can run away from God by hiding behind the tree, under your blanket or maybe even in your closet? I am sure God, will look down from Heaven saying "Son you can run but I see where you are, stop hiding from Me". A lot of times, we heard Him speaking through many ways or revealing the truth to us but sometimes our tendency is just to run and run and run. So the next time you heard God calling you, RUN! but not away from Him but run to His calling and say God I am here!

A place to remember

2010-05-01T15:13:00.007+08:00

Reflection

Street of silence

Follow the light

Arches

Moonlight

I am who I am

Green pasture

2010-05-01T14:42:00.002+08:00

I really need it... badly...

D90 meet new friends

2010-04-28T23:50:00.001+08:00

My D90 long lost friends. Today they finally got a chance to get "attached".
MB-D80 Battery Grip + Nikon Speedlight SB600+Diffuser

Handsome isn't it?

Handsomer isn't it?

In my definition, a DSLR would only be a complete DSLR when it has all these items:

Body + Lens + External Flash + Battery Grip + Tripod

Well, I don't grow money on trees. The reason why I could obtain these items in such short time is I do earn some bucks by doing photoshooting, participating in survey and selling some stuffs and furthermore I do have some extra money that I used to allocate for certain things which is no longer needed anymore.

I've been contemplating on whether to get the Phottix or Meike 3rd party grip because is almost half the price of the original grip but at the end I settle down with the original Nikon although both Phottix and Meike is almost 95% alike with the original one. Main reason is because I've seen plenty of complaints and issues arising when using the 3rd party grip. Well, not all of them would have problem as there are many users that were quite satisfied with the 3rd party grips but I shall prefer to be on the safe side by supporting Original!

I am very satisfied with the grip. Indeed it makes the whole DSLR feels more balance and right to me now. Especially, when taking vertical shots.

This is how we normally take vertical shots without the grip. Actually to me both of the ways is not wrong is just that which way you are more comfortable with. Without the grip, I will normally use the 2nd way which the picture claim is wrong. Don't you think is so troublesome with your elbow up that way? Is like anytime you going to elbow somebody who is standing at your side and not to mention this 2 method actually create a uncomfortable shooting experience. With the grip, I no longer need to hold my DSLR in such weird position anymore when taking vertical shots as there is an extra shutter button on the bottom of the grip where you can just hold the grip and snap picture just like how you shoot landscape pictures.

The grip also makes the whole DSLR feels right for me. The weight, the balance and everything is just right for a more stable and steady shot. It definitely helps to balance the weight when you have a very light lens or heavy lens attached to your DSLR. One example of light lens will be the 50mm F1.8D. Lastly, you can slot 2 EN3le batteries in it or 6AA batteries for extra shooting duration. With 2 EN3LE batteries you can shot at least 3 days till you need to recharge it. Not sure how long the 6AA batteries can last but if not mistaken it will only last around 200 - 300 shots. Suitable for traveling purpose!

The SB600 is awesome. I am loving flash photography more and more. Trust me once you try it you will never resist it! The only thing I need to get now is the Sanyo Eneloop Low Self Discharge rechargeable batteries. One of the most recommended batteries because it produces a faster flash cycle time for the speedlight. Sad thing is, it don't come cheap. Around RM135 for 4AA batteries with a charger.

mOney

2010-04-28T00:32:00.003+08:00

Lifetime warranty

2010-04-27T22:53:00.004+08:00

I used to have this item with lifetime warranty stated in the product card.

Recently it is broken. I sent in for warranty.

After 1 month.

The person in charge told me. "Sorry sir product lifetime warranty ended and we forget to tell you sir that we don't cover lifetime warranty anymore for product that had been discontinued"

Awww.. how disappointing?

Guess is time for a new one?

My 7 million

2010-04-27T16:50:00.004+08:00

Finally my long awaited camera bag is here. For those that follow my blog, you guys would know I wanted a 6 million dollar home initially because I think the size was just right for me. I've been waiting patiently for crumpler KLCC to restock but all I get is delay and delay. If not because their price is cheaper than Singapore by 20 bucks I would have gotten it in from a friend that can get for me from there. This bag is second hand but only used for few days. The seller bought it just for few days and notice it couldn't fit all his gears so he decided to sell it off to me at just RM300.

Yeap few days used and is just RM300! Adding on to that, the seller even come all the way to meet me at my uni just to deal with me. A new one would cost RM379 and even the 6 million cost RM339. Don't you think is a great deal? I got it deliver to me, a lot cheaper, the color that i wanted most and a bigger bag!

Definitely a blessing from God. =)
Good things are worth the wait! Yes only and only good things are worth waiting for.

Sila Dengar dan Tengok

2010-04-26T19:32:00.008+08:00

Jeremiah 5:21

Hear this, you foolish and senseless people, who have eyes but do not see, who have ears but do not hear

Jeremiah 6:10

¹⁰ To whom can I speak and give warning?
Who will listen to me?
Their ears are closed
so they cannot hear.
The word of the LORD is offensive to them;
they find no pleasure in it.

"Our responsibility is to share the Truth, their responsibility is to accept it. What we say shall not be determine by what they want to hear" -God-

Sacrifice

2010-04-26T15:22:00.002+08:00

Anyone likes sacrifice? I bet most of us would run away first when we heard the word sacrifice.

Remember the old story of the pig and chicken who met a poor, hungry man. The pig said, "We ought to do something to help that poor guy."

"Why don't we give him a ham and egg breakfast?" the chicken suggested.

"That's easy for you to say," the pig responded. "For you it is a generous contribution, but for me it is a personal sacrifice!"

The point made by the pig is very true. Who wants to grow in sacrifice?

Matthew 16:24-25 (New International Version)

24Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25For whoever wants to save his life[a] will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.

I came across this story and this verse and it really reminded me about my journey as a Christian. Selfishness and self-centered would only bring destruction than any other good. It is when we learn to forget ourselves more and there is when we learn to sacrifice and be responsible of things we really want. Imagine if Jesus is selfish while He is on the cross what would happen?

It really reminds us that are we following Jesus or just flirting with Him? Flirting is attention without intention. A flirt is someone who wants all the excitement of a relationship with none of the responsibilities. It is like you want the crown but not the cross? It really got me thinking.. how about you?

The Closet

2010-04-25T09:31:00.004+08:00

One day everything in this closet will come out.

Juz a car

2010-04-25T03:31:00.002+08:00

Stunning in white. Ugly rims though.
Gonna hunt some photos for my all time favourite Ferrari F430!

Bird on a wire

2010-04-24T03:14:00.002+08:00

The 9 most annoying types of people in Facebook

2010-04-23T02:22:00.004+08:00

So where do you fit into? Hahaha

3 kaki

2010-04-22T19:23:00.003+08:00

Grabbed myself a tripod last weekend to get my photo shooting job to be done more properly under low light conditions.

Wei Feng 5131 pan head tripod

My initial plan was to get the Victory 3001b tripod but my friend's shop doesn't carry stocks for it so I've tested this China brand tripod which is quite satisfying for RM170 and also a lot cheaper than brands like victory and manfrotto. Due to my financial limitations I've decided to get this tripod as after some testing it feels quite stable for a below RM200 tripod and using it for the first time to do some food photo shoot it is actually not bad in my opinion. Decided to go for a pan head instead of a ball head even though a ball head is more flexible and easy to use.

This is because if I were to get a ball head tripod I would at least spend RM250 or above for a good one because I don't feel secure using a below RM200 ball head tripod. Ball head is easy to use because there is only one joint and it allows you to switch to every position you want just by one button and that require the ball head to be really properly built in strength to hold your DSLR with lens well. So my advice is if you are to invest on a ball head tripod spend at least RM250 above to get a good one.

The Pencil

2010-04-22T16:44:00.003+08:00

The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box.

"There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "..before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."

1. You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in someone's hand.

2. You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil.

3. You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

4. The most important part of you will always be what's inside.

5. On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write.

What does this parable speaks to you? It speaks a lot to me as i look back into my life when i was once a pencil that is not held by anyone. Now, I've found the best owner ever.

Extraordinary prayer meet

2010-04-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

Psalm 13
For the director of music. A psalm of David.

1 How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

4 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

I am going to finish the race well.
Yes Lord?

I'm feeling lucky

2010-04-20T16:24:00.002+08:00

Today I dropped my phone at the "stewpid" APIIT car park. Thank God there is this kind young lady who take the effort to call my friend so that she can return back the phone to me. Coincidentally, I was around Megan Corporate Park with my friend Danny looking for the company to claim warranty for my Case Logic messenger bag when she called. She is such a kind soul as she told me she don't mind to wait for 10 minutes for me to return back there to pick up my phone.

I wonder would I still end up getting back my phone if the phone that I dropped is not my cheapo Nokia 6070 but is my 3Gs. Hmmmm....

Was quite disappointed with the company called Blue Orange resources which is the official retailer for Case Logic products because I went all the way there and they told me the person in charge is not around and I have to leave my contact and bag there and they will contact me if there is stock availability for 1 to 1 exchange.

Thought that this model would have been obsolete from the market but surprisingly it is still available in their website. No hope for getting a new design replacement.. LOL

Tee[J]

My debt

The will of God

Joshua 1:8

Amusing

One desire

Time flies

F&F

I am thankful

Serenity Prayer

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1st in 2011

My encounter with God favor

Because

Chinese-fied

Just to leave some text

Checking out Uniqlo

Deep down

No shortcut

Mission trip to Jerantut

Restart

God is good

Psalm 5:12 (New International Version)

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Jeremiah 6:16 (New International Version)

Isaiah 52:7 (New International Version)

Packed up..

Workout

No fear

Isaiah 41:10

Nowadays...

Done

Where is your root?

Mark 4:17 (New Living Translation)

Happiness or Joy?

Getting there

Think bout it..

Spoiled!

It has begun

Seasons in life

Is time to grab one?

Do something

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Reminder

Decision

P.U.S.H

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (New International Version)

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Lamentations 3:19-21 (The Message)

Hebrews 12:11 (New Living Translation)

Stress check

Splurge!

Juz You and me

Just for 1$

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Art of sailing

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1 John 4:17-19 (New International Version)

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Proverbs 9:13-18

Eyes on You

2 Chronicles 20:12

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My little toe

Rescue

Sweet as honey

Your promise

Psalm 71:20

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